Getting to the Bottom of Things

Three poems
by Patrick Jordan
 
Seconds Go By
 
Some days things seem to fit.
Some days things seem to fall apart,
and the fear creeps in.
The frightening idea that
my life is not going as planned.
Not even, as planned.
But awry.
Totally off the rails.
Like nothing is the way it should be.
Or, could be.
And that feeling scares the shit out of me.
It puts me in a state of total confusion.
Total awkwardness.
It leaves me bewildered.
And my mind just turns and turns.
I’m unable to focus on anything.
I’m unable to grasp what it’s all about.
And I just stare.
I stare at the wall.
Everything else is shut out.
Just blankness.
Then it’s gone.
That quick.
Gone.
 
Carpe Tenebris
 
Some say seize the day
I say seize the night
Seize the dark
Seize the darkness
The Dyer
The dangerous
Seize the doom
Take hold of the dark
Take hold of that blackness inside of you
Grab onto it
Grab onto it and make it yours
Make it something that belongs to you
Squeeze it into something that you can be a part of
Be that dark form inside yourself
Answer to it
Hear it calling
Become it
Seize the dark
Seize the night
Carpe Tenebris
 
Carpe Tenebris
 
Turning Weird
 
I’m not sure it was a gradual thing
or if it was there all along.
I know we are all born with an empty canvas
and our experiences paint
the picture called Us.
As a kid I would like to think
I was as normal and average as the next kid,
but somewhere between then and now,
I turned weird.
I mean, I’ve felt weird
as long as I can remember,
but I’m not sure if I turned weird,
or I was born that way.
I mean, can someone be born weird?
I know I’ve seen some crazy shit.
I’ve done a shit ton of drugs too.
Maybe that’s it.
But I was weird long before
I ever touched any drugs.
So that can’t be it. Can it?
I’ve got to get to the bottom of this.
I’ve got to find out where weird comes from.
How it starts.
How it begins.
What causes someone to be weird?
It’s my new mission to find out.
I’m talking about science here.
Real honest to god science.
I’ve got to do some research.
It might just be my “Mission from god.”
If Elwood and Jake can have a
mission from god,
I guess I can too.
I’m gonna get to the bottom of this.
Trust me.
Don’t you worry,
I’ll find out.
My weirdness will lead the way.
As soon as I find out this “weird” answer,
I’ll let you know.
 
Until then, you guessed it.
 
Stay Weird!!
 
—————–
Patrick Jordan has been writing poetry and prose since he was ten years old. He holds degrees in both Sociology and Psychology and is an astute human behavioral specialist and truth seeker. Through poetic expression and creative writing, he seeks the simple minimalistic side of life. Following in the footsteps of the Gonzo journalist Dr. Hunter S Thompson and poet Charles Bukowski, Patrick sets himself at the center of his search for the truth. Spending much of his life on the edge, Patrick has been reborn and tries to keep an open mind and let the words flow into his writing. In 2014 Patrick created the Facebook group “Notes From The Edge: Inspired by Hunter S. Thompson, Gonzo, Bukowski, and the Beats!” With nearly two thousand members they share their love of the written word and carve out a special place online. Recently he’s formed the independent, non-profit “Stay Weird and Keep Writing Print Company” and has published several chapbooks and has more in the works. He has been published in multiple online poetry websites. There on the Edge he hones his craft into something unique and hopes to spark a fire for all to see. He is currently working on a Master’s degree in Substance Abuse and Mental Heath Counseling.
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Scott Thomas Outlar hosts the site 17Numa.wordpress.com where links to his published poetry, fiction, essays, interviews, reviews, and books can be found. He is a Best of the Net and three-time Pushcart Prize nominee. Scott's poetry books include: Songs of a Dissident (Transcendent Zero Press, 2015), Chaos Songs (Weasel Press, 2016), Happy Hour Hallelujah (CTU Publishing, 2016), and Poison in Paradise (Alien Buddha Press, 2017). Scott is a member of The Southern Collective Experience; he also serves as an editor for Walking Is Still Honest Press, The Blue Mountain Review, The Peregrine Muse, and Novelmasters.

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