Some days things seem to fit.
Some days things seem to fall apart,
The frightening idea that
my life is not going as planned.
Like nothing is the way it should be.
And that feeling scares the shit out of me.
It puts me in a state of total confusion.
And my mind just turns and turns.
I’m unable to focus on anything.
I’m unable to grasp what it’s all about.
Everything else is shut out.
Take hold of that blackness inside of you
Grab onto it and make it yours
Make it something that belongs to you
Squeeze it into something that you can be a part of
Be that dark form inside yourself
I’m not sure it was a gradual thing
or if it was there all along.
I know we are all born with an empty canvas
and our experiences paint
As a kid I would like to think
I was as normal and average as the next kid,
but somewhere between then and now,
as long as I can remember,
but I’m not sure if I turned weird,
I mean, can someone be born weird?
I know I’ve seen some crazy shit.
I’ve done a shit ton of drugs too.
But I was weird long before
I ever touched any drugs.
So that can’t be it. Can it?
I’ve got to get to the bottom of this.
I’ve got to find out where weird comes from.
What causes someone to be weird?
It’s my new mission to find out.
I’m talking about science here.
Real honest to god science.
I’ve got to do some research.
It might just be my “Mission from god.”
If Elwood and Jake can have a
I’m gonna get to the bottom of this.
My weirdness will lead the way.
As soon as I find out this “weird” answer,
Until then, you guessed it.
Patrick Jordan has been writing poetry and prose since he was ten years old. He holds degrees in both Sociology and Psychology and is an astute human behavioral specialist and truth seeker. Through poetic expression and creative writing, he seeks the simple minimalistic side of life. Following in the footsteps of the Gonzo journalist Dr. Hunter S Thompson and poet Charles Bukowski, Patrick sets himself at the center of his search for the truth. Spending much of his life on the edge, Patrick has been reborn and tries to keep an open mind and let the words flow into his writing. In 2014 Patrick created the Facebook group “Notes From The Edge: Inspired by Hunter S. Thompson, Gonzo, Bukowski, and the Beats!” With nearly two thousand members they share their love of the written word and carve out a special place online. Recently he’s formed the independent, non-profit “Stay Weird and Keep Writing Print Company” and has published several chapbooks and has more in the works. He has been published in multiple online poetry websites. There on the Edge he hones his craft into something unique and hopes to spark a fire for all to see. He is currently working on a Master’s degree in Substance Abuse and Mental Heath Counseling.