Picket Fence Paradise (Fallen)

by Jessica Lindsley 
the thing about the holidays is that everyone wants to talk about going home again
when you really never had a home to begin with
you have been searching for something impossible to find, a kind of mythical creature
that one constructs with building materials
the time spent pacing around outside the front door of the house where you grew up
gives you time to think about this place called home
when all we ever wanted all those years within these walls was a kind of escape 
that would grant us our freedom
but tragic that we spend the rest of our lives trying to recapture a sense of it
hours writing in workshops of the smells
of the bread that our mothers used to bake, the collection of smoky cologne bottles
that particular shade of yellow in the kitchen 
home then, that place we once fled and now eternally will try to reenter, our personal
Eden: our mother brandishing a cigarette
Jessica Lindsley grew up in North Dakota before the oil boom. Her work has been published in the Smoking Poet, Blackwood Press, Thirteen Myna Birds, DEAD SNAKES and other publications.

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Scott Thomas Outlar hosts the site 17Numa.wordpress.com where links to his published poetry, fiction, essays, interviews, reviews, and books can be found. He is a Best of the Net and three-time Pushcart Prize nominee. Scott's poetry books include: Songs of a Dissident (Transcendent Zero Press, 2015), Chaos Songs (Weasel Press, 2016), Happy Hour Hallelujah (CTU Publishing, 2016), and Poison in Paradise (Alien Buddha Press, 2017). Scott is a member of The Southern Collective Experience; he also serves as an editor for Walking Is Still Honest Press, The Blue Mountain Review, The Peregrine Muse, and Novelmasters.

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